2 Years?! (Life Changes)

Okay hold on, this is a bit stupid at this point. 2 YEARS?! And two years exactly too haha, that's insane! I'm not going to lie, I forgot that I even HAD a blog for a while. I think it's because I was in my last year of high school and trying to figure out the whole college situation. I wanted to focus on social media because it's one of the few things I'm super passionate about, but I kept making excuses as to why I couldn't. I would tell myself that "it's just not realistic" and "no one wants to know what I'm up to." Even if those are true, why wouldn't I still try? I'm currently trying to rebrand my channel and make it into something that I love, not just popular content (although I do love watching all those weird tag videos so there will probably still be a lot of them haha). Something recently happened in my life and it just made me realize that the path I was on wasn't going to make me happy. Sure, I might make a lot of money, but what good is that if I'm unhappy. And yes, money is good to have. I'm not going to pretend that I don't want to make money. Anyone that says that is lying. But I'd rather not make as much money trying to do something that I love and that will make me happy first rather than jumping straight into a regular job that I won't like. Although now that I'm typing this out, I'm realizing that my major isn't exactly a normal job haha. My Current major is Applied Computer Science with a concentration in Computer Game Design. So maybe not a "boring" job but I would rather have that be my hobby instead of my career you know? I gave up on YouTube thinking that it would never work out. And if I'm being honest with myself, it still might not. But I want to put in the effort and the time and find out the hard way rather than wondering what if for the rest of my life. Another excuse I used all the time was "I don't have the time." Me, myself and I know that's a lie haha. I have the time, I just didn't want to put in the amount of effort required. But now I'm ready. I'm all in. Life's to short and I'm not going to sit around and wait for things to happen anymore. It's time to take matters into my own hands. If I want this to work, I have to MAKE it work. And I will. This is MY time, and I'm going to do it.

Thanks so much for reading, I'll see you soon- Syd